Still Here

A few of you occasionally remind me that I have this space and gently nudge me to write something new. I've wanted to for a while now... but I can never decide what to write about. I could write about my day, I suppose... tell you that I woke up, went to work, saw some live music (perhaps) or made a little dinner and curled up on the couch for the evening. But all that just seems so pointless... so worthy of a "yeah... and?" sort of response. So instead I've left my blogging hat (and, incidentally, my writing gloves as well) hanging on the peg at the door.

I've been reading a lot lately, which has made me desperate to write again and yet also terrified that I'll never live up to what others (or even I) expect or hope from me. I miss writing... I miss that feeling when I type the last word of this, that or the other and realize, "I've finished something. It might not be incredible... but it's mine, I wrote it, and it's finished."

I'm writing this while I'm at work because it seemed today might be a slower day... however, this has proved to be untrue and it's been almost three hours since I wrote those first two paragraphs. Thus, I find myself unable to keep a steady train of thought and continue on in any sensical way.

So before I go back to business, here are a few things I've done lately that have brought me joy:

• saw Harry Potter 6 (informal title) for the second time at Alamo Drafthouse in Austin
• while watching said film at said theater, I drank their version of butterbeer and enjoyed it immensely (I've been daydreaming about butterbeer since I first read about it in whichever HP book introduces it)
• watched/listened to a LOT of live music... mostly friends and their awesome bands, which only adds to the fun
• bought a really cool vintage dress from New Bohemia in Austin
• ordered a new mattress and boxsprings... I've been sleeping on my current set for 23 years, and before that it spent many years in my great grandparents' house (suffice it to say, it's OLD)
• picked out a new couch and plan to order it (most likely in the color "Vintage") sometime this week
• started reading The Eyre Affair on a friend's recommendation
• decided a few months ago that I'd like to go to seminary to be a relationship counselor... I got my acceptance letter last week (I feel like this isn't something to be overly excited about b/c I'm pretty sure they accept anyone... however, I was excited nonetheless b/c this makes it official)... I start in September
• I've started cooking almost all my meals myself... it may not sound revolutionary, but it is for me... and I'm loving it

Yeah... none of it's all THAT exciting. But I suppose life's joy is found mostly in the small things, right?